Every Day Matters
Today has been a better day. By better, I mean I didn't cry and I have been able to try to get back to my daily routine. Routine is such a stupid word though. We don't usually do the same exact thing every single day. There is variety. There should be at least. I am trying to get back to life.
But, I am always thinking of you Ash. Remembering you. And always wishing you were still here, but we don't get that option.
I read something today that made me feel hopeful. A lady wrote a letter to her husband and family to read after she passed away. She had been diagnosed with cancer and it was terminal. She stated something in her letter that I really liked: "Time is the most precious thing in this world... Please do me a favor and take a few minutes each day to acknowledge this fragile adventure that is this crazy life."
These words really stood out to me. They really made me stop and think. How often do you stop and think of the life you're living? The people who are in it? The ones who may not be, whether due to death or other reasons?
After Ashley's accident, there has been a huge freakin hole in my life and in my heart. And I think it will always be that way. However, She didn't just leave without living her life to the fullest. She really squished everything she could into every day that she lived. She lived life on the edge and without a care of what anybody thought of her. Which for me is a little too much out of my comfort zone, because let's get one thing straight... My sister was crazy! And I think that is why everyone loved her. If you were a reserved and shy person, she would be the one to change that and make you feel uncomfortable (in a good way of course ;) ).
Although I may not go about things the same way Ash did, but you better believe I'm going to live my life to the fullest. I'm not going to let anyone or anything stand in my way. And I know that that is what Ash would want me to do, what she would want everyone to do. Life does happen though and we may be faced with good days and bad days. When it comes to those bad days, take a step back and just take a minute to think about this "fragile adventure" we're living. Acknowledge and appreciate what you have and where you are in life.
I can't say that I'm going to stop being sad and stop crying because Ashley is no longer physically here with me. Religious beliefs aside, I know that she is here with me.
There are still going to be hard days that feel like you can no longer go on... and everything becomes overwhelming. But that is ok. Just don't let it suck you completely down. I let it take over the last 2 days of my life and it isn't worth it... I'm just grateful I have friends who have been strong for me and very understanding when I have bad days.
But,
"Don't ever forget, Every Day Matters."
Link is the story I made reference to above:
http://fox13now.com/2015/12/18/mother-dies-from-cancer-leaves-hilarious-and-foul-letter-to-her-family/
But, I am always thinking of you Ash. Remembering you. And always wishing you were still here, but we don't get that option.
I read something today that made me feel hopeful. A lady wrote a letter to her husband and family to read after she passed away. She had been diagnosed with cancer and it was terminal. She stated something in her letter that I really liked: "Time is the most precious thing in this world... Please do me a favor and take a few minutes each day to acknowledge this fragile adventure that is this crazy life."
These words really stood out to me. They really made me stop and think. How often do you stop and think of the life you're living? The people who are in it? The ones who may not be, whether due to death or other reasons?
After Ashley's accident, there has been a huge freakin hole in my life and in my heart. And I think it will always be that way. However, She didn't just leave without living her life to the fullest. She really squished everything she could into every day that she lived. She lived life on the edge and without a care of what anybody thought of her. Which for me is a little too much out of my comfort zone, because let's get one thing straight... My sister was crazy! And I think that is why everyone loved her. If you were a reserved and shy person, she would be the one to change that and make you feel uncomfortable (in a good way of course ;) ).
Although I may not go about things the same way Ash did, but you better believe I'm going to live my life to the fullest. I'm not going to let anyone or anything stand in my way. And I know that that is what Ash would want me to do, what she would want everyone to do. Life does happen though and we may be faced with good days and bad days. When it comes to those bad days, take a step back and just take a minute to think about this "fragile adventure" we're living. Acknowledge and appreciate what you have and where you are in life.
I can't say that I'm going to stop being sad and stop crying because Ashley is no longer physically here with me. Religious beliefs aside, I know that she is here with me.
There are still going to be hard days that feel like you can no longer go on... and everything becomes overwhelming. But that is ok. Just don't let it suck you completely down. I let it take over the last 2 days of my life and it isn't worth it... I'm just grateful I have friends who have been strong for me and very understanding when I have bad days.
But,
"Don't ever forget, Every Day Matters."
Link is the story I made reference to above:
http://fox13now.com/2015/12/18/mother-dies-from-cancer-leaves-hilarious-and-foul-letter-to-her-family/
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