We All Just Want To Be Loved.

It's hard to remember what it feels to be loved by someone that you're in love with.

There are so many different types of love, meanings of love and expressions of love.
We have our family, friends and significant others and spouses.

There is always love around us.

But not very often that you are shown love... at least in the way that you need it. When you're most vulnerable.

I'm not needing or wanting pity... I just need to vent.

I never really understood how people could be depressed before this hellish chain of events happened in my life.

I couldn't wrap my head around the fact that we are always surrounded by people who love us, and yet there are still those out there that are depressed and sad.

Well, I've had first hand experience at this now. Yes, I'm surrounded by people who love me and tell me that they love me. But actions always speak louder than words.

When it comes to spending countless nights crying about your sister's death and not having a single soul be there to hold you and love you... you get depressed.

You (I) start seeing life differently.
You (I) start having low expectations.
You (I) start to lose hope and light.

You (I) get depressed.

There isn't anyone to blame... (at least not anymore, not anyone worth my thoughts and time...idiot)

But damnit... I need to be loved.

I want and need someone to love me.

But my heart has been so broken and untrusting that it's hard to let anyone try to fill that void.
I don't need anyone to depend on.

No, we go through this life in companionships. With someone who understands our wants, needs, desires. With someone always by our side.

We humans need a companion.
We don't do well going through life alone.

I'm not doing well on my own. Yes I'm independent.. but that's not the same thing.
I can entertain myself.

It's not entertainment that we need necessarily. It's love. Someone who cares about us at a deeper level than just friendship.

I'm not in a hurry to fall in love and get married.

But I do want to be in love.
I want someone who can fix my world when it seems like it can't be fixed.
Someone who will always be there when I fall.
Someone who will hold me when I cry.

Because in the end,

We all just want to be loved by someone.